Sometimes we hold so many bitter thoughts about everyone around us and our past we find that we have reached a place of bitterness, we are angry, we cannot let go. I recall how after form four I was consistently angry with my parents for stifling my dreams or so it felt, for example for making me take a course to do that was for them, for being so strict yet I stuck to rules on my own and not trusting me on my own, for asking me to chip into the family budget even before I enjoyed my first salary. I was so angry I could not hold a conversation with them for too long. And this ran into several years.

Then the anger spread to my brother and sisters, I was often trying to raise them up in their life, trying to find financial solutions for them, often forgetting myself or rather denying myself everything in the process. I would notice that they often wanted more than I could afford and were never happy with what I was doing for them. I got angry with them and stopped all communication with them. One day a friend who could see what I was going through asked me to forgive them, not for themselves but for myself and because I trusteed the friend and I adhered to the request. For days I would be aware of the anger in me and would ask God to get me to the level of forgiveness I need to get, as I slowly thought about the possibility of forgiveness, I slowly began to mellow my hard stand on them got less, I slowly I began to listen to them more attentively, I first forgave my parents then started with my siblings one at a time it has been a two year process and as I forgive them, they forgave me. As they forgive me we started to enjoy a good relationship with each other. They somehow began to also forgive each other. I slowly also began to forgive those around me. I was less critical of people and situations and often sat like a child among people quietly, listening and watching, only speaking when asked. I also started to forgive myself and treat myself well. With this serenity my health improved, I was able to start walking for leisure and started to loose weight, people I knew and strangers opened up to me a lot more and told me deep stuff, I started to pray a lot more, I mean really pray then I started to look different I like shed off 10 years from my face and body, people smiled at more often, were more receptive and kind, I got less sick or rather let’s  say I enjoyed a healthy lifestyle. Everything in my life started to turn around, I began to notice alot of fun things to do to make life interesting and today life has become an exciting adventure filled with good health, happiness and fulfillment.

A little Eden also goes a long way to speed up any aliments that we all may be suffering from.

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